I created this blog and yet I'm not updating it. Hahaha. well that sucks but hey! cause I don't got anything good to do in the internet. might as well post here :)
I've been living a life of my past. and I'm regretting things that happened to me before. Like about my ex. I really do love my ex-girlfriend. and even though how hard I try to love another female sentient being. it just so happen that I always come back loving her.
what a hopeless romantic I am. and it sucks! cause every time I try to court other girls I get jilted. but yeah I'm young and more will come and go. but true love doesn't choose it's age. well that's what I believe.
I love my ex girlfriend so much. it's just because she accepted me as who I am and what I am. I'm not that good-looking and I'm not that intelligent and smart. but still she chose me besides other guys who are "better" than me.
and here I was thinking that she forgot about me.
I gave our pictures to her friend. I told her "ikaw na bahala sa pics namen. bahala ka kung itatabi mo. itatapon mo. o isosoli mo ke Margaret". then I left.
after months of waiting for nothing. I remembered the pics and I suddenly decided to get it back. but when I ask the girl whom I gave the pictures she told me that she gave it to Margaret.
and I asked. "ano ginawa ni margaret?" she replied "pinunit nya. ewan ko. si marie tanungin mo"
then Here I was asking marie. "uy anong nangyari sa pics?"
and marie told me. "pinunit ni margaret sa gitna. ung kalahati which is ung pics mo. tinabi nya. ung kalahati which is ung pics nya binigay nya sakin" there's a catch. "lam mo sir sonar mahal na mahal ka nun. kasi tinanong ko sya nitong nakaraan lang. sabi ko kung may manliligaw sa kanya papayag ba sya. sabi nya na hindi daw. kasi ikaw parin daw ang gus2 nya"
What I don't get is that she loves me yet she doesn't want me back. cause I tried to court her again. but it was no use. she doesn't want any connection between us.
haaaay~ if I could really turn back time.
and I don't want to talk about things. so this is it for my post.
tell you everything later.
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
goodbye HS hello College!
It was the first day of my college life and things went a little screwed up. Well to the point that I don't know where my room is.. Stupid? no. It's because they changed the room and I went nuts because it's already 1:30 (my math class is 1o'clock) and I haven't still found out where my effing room is!
Anyways. let's start the story to where it should start.
I came to school around 10:20am because my first class for Monday and Tuesday starts at 10:30am and I don't wan't to make an impression of being late for the first day. Well there was I asking where room 1 is and they told me it's the last room in the highschool row of classrooms. I was confused cause last year it was our room. Well anyways that doesn't matter. I didn't go to my room yet. I sat at a bench facing towards our classroom. Then the classroom beside our room opened its door and there I saw my ex-girlfriend. Our eyes met but I didn't made any reaction. I pretended to ignore her. How cruel. Of all people to see why she?
Then our prof in Filipino came in. My prof in filipino was a toothless fairy. -____- then she explained us about college life. The grading system of 1-5. And about attaining grades of 1-2 that leads you into tuition fee discount benefit. So many new faces that I really can't help myself to look around and annalize their personality. Well I made friends with my Com-sci classmates though.
It was time for our college algebra class as I head into the AVR room cause in my schedule it says its the AVR room. Then we we're suprised to found out that the room was changed. A prof. told us to wait there. then we saw some students together with our guidance councelor departing probably to another room. But it was late that we found out that we should be coming with them! We we're panicking as we rushed into the new building room NB4 and we were so embarassed about being so late... we arrived a quarter before 2 o clock. and our math class ends at 2:30. and here I was telling myself not to make an impression of being a tardy person. -_____-
Then we had a little discussion in math and I was surprised that I myself was cooperating in the subject. I think I'm starting to love math. Well anyways it was time for our english class. We had this test about what kind of brain am I. Am I a left brain (w/c means I excel with numbers) or am I a right brain (w/c means I excel in reading and stuff). My result was that I'm a leftbrainer. WHAT THE FUCK? I was never good at math!
All I can say is that I'm looking forward to enjoying my college life even though it's still the same goddamn campus. I was there since 2nd grade upto now. I deserve the biggest loyalty medal you could ever imagine.. big enough to fry an egg or sausages.
I don't know but how much I deny that I don't love my ex anymore I always end up swallowing my words. I thought I had moved on but the feelings still come back. I wanna say to her face that I still love you. You don't need to make things worse.
I'm such a hopeless romantic.. poor me... T_T
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
blurry
why the hell did I use that title for my entry? lol it's a song called Blurry by Puddle of Mud.
The song makes me sad though. Dunno whom he sings that song to but I'm sure he's a sad about it. Anyways...
I've neglected this blog for a long time. YES! I have not posted until now.. wahoo!! just some random shit guys. nothing special with this post.. XD
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
mayday!
this day was not that boring compared to the previous ones. I've played DOTA together with my friends and we had a whale of time playing. after we playing DOTA we went to my house to eat crackers and drink juice. LOL the usual merienda session with my friends.
okay. then we played a game called "Jenga" it is similar to "Uno" where you make a tower from pieces of blocks then in each players turn you remove a block then place it on top to make it higher. Well Jenga is the old school version w/c is made by wooden blocks only. While Uno is the new version where the blocks are made of plastic and is colored and numbered where you pick a card and you will remove the block according to the number and its color. Anyways.The thrill of the game is when the tower is already tall and wobbly where the pressure comes. When the player attempts to remove a block the tower either falls down or luckily balances itself. Well you get my point.
Then after that Jeds and Philip played chess and Ric. Roy and I tried to do my 300 piece puzzle. The puzzle was so many that we had a hard time doing it. well. I wish luck would find its way to us. Fuck...
Monday, April 23, 2007
all my best friends are metalheads
and yes.. here goes my stories again..
well my day today was not the usual boring day. I had things to do. My blog
then I took a bath. then I ate. then I slept (w/c was interrupted by some stupid call).
Then I'm sitting here again in front of my laptop typing these words again. ohhh well..
And as I was saying. what was I saying? oh.. yeah.. I've been hearing such good news
from my GC peeps these days. hahahaha And I'm amused and happy bout it .
Though some I heard has dilemmas but well.. nah I can't say anything that has sense.
All I know is that I don't have much love problems to attend to and that's pretty good.
Cause I've been doing well in my "moving on" process and I am concentrated to it.
Finding a girlfriend can wait. Well at least I'm looking forward to college. I took Computer Science in my previous School..
well.. let's just end this post here. I'm tired and I'll be eating dinner now..
Bye suckas
OMG
aahh!! at last! I have finished my blogskin! weee~!
aherm* to say something bout my blog.
Well I was listening to Alert The Armory by Urbandub
then I decided to create a blog layout. At first I thought of
my regular theme which is Black Red and White or Gray.
Though I was so sick of those bland colors (well red makes it a little colorful)
so I had to create something different. And here it is! care of Al Pacino from scarface.
Al Pacino: You mess with me! YOU MESS W/ THE BEST!!
oh I remember that movie. He was goddamn crazy shooting. Too bad for him though.. :(
Then the tag line "Weapons in the form of words" was from the song This Ain't a Scene
It's an arms race by Fall Out Boy. Well the connection between Urbandub and Falloutboy's
songs are quite confusing though. But they both compose good songs and they rock so
that makes sense. Does it?
Arghh!! fuck summer. sooo hot..
Monday, April 16, 2007
spectrum
and here is my first post on this blog and I hope that I can update this frequently..
oh crap.. my tummy hurts..
